Let me laugh.

Sometimes  I forget what it is  like to be carefree.  To laugh….

imageI am fated to journey hand in hand with my strange heroes and to survey the surging immensity of life, to survey it through the laughter that all can see and through the tears unseen and unknown by anyone.

Nikolai Gogol

Yes.  Sometime when you cry it’s a sweet release.  But God how I miss just letting go…






When is enough…enough?

buddha quotes on anger

Do you ever get tired of the same routine every day? Your life is just one continuous rerun.

Or being taken for granted?

Or your opinions have no merit?

When is enough…enough?

How much can one individual take when the world they live in is not the one they wish to participate in?

When is enough…enough?

Working at a job that can  frankly be thankless.

Feeling you’re not being heard or your opinions don’t matter when you try to express yourself?

When the same ol’ routine gets to be so damn boring that you wish you were  somewhere else but here.

When you desire for something better but have no clue what that “something better” is.


When is enough…enough.

When is it enough when someone lashes out at you in anger and takes no mind at what they say as being anything but what is important to them?

No constructive dialogue…you either accept it or leave. You take the verbal abuse or you leave. No middle ground. No room for discussion…it is what it is.

When is enough…enough?

When does disrespect in a relationship create such a palatable discord but you have no idea how to address it?


When is enough…ENOUGH?

Being kind should not be so difficult

“Our lives are not our own. We are bound to others, past and present, and by each crime and every kindness, we birth our future.”
― David Mitchell, Cloud Atlas


Why history always repeats itself I’ll never know.  We are inherently bound to one another. Our actions create a rippling effect.  Whether it be something as simple as a hello….or ignoring a person in need…we each have a responsibility towards one another. We are not as autonomous as we may like to think.

In the field where I died


At times I almost dream
I too have spent a life the sages’ way,
And tread once more familiar paths. Perchance
I perished in an arrogant self-reliance
Ages ago; and in that act a prayer
For one more chance went up so earnest, so
Instinct with better light let in by death,
That life was blotted out — not so completely
But scattered wrecks enough of it remain,
Dim memories, as now, when once more seems
The goal in sight again.

Robert Browning

“This gun control issue”

This gun ownership issue has been discussed to death!

There are enough guns out there for every man, women, and child in America.  I do believe in protecting my family and property and using guns for hunting.  I personally don’t have an issue with background checks. I also served in the military and am familiar with weapons. There cannot be this ALL  or NOTHING mentality when it comes to this extremest mindsets.

And living in St. Louis there is so much crime committed by very violent people.


I strongly support the need of more policing of criminals with violent backgrounds and getting illegal guns off the street.  The police need to be able to get to these individuals and take these guns away. And yes, they can always find more and thus more policing of these criminals and weapons needs to be done.

Finding a middle ground regarding this issue always seems to be such a difficult task and I simply don’t see why.


Ok, off my soapbox.

I am hooked on Cavapoos

What a lovely mixed breed.  This one’s name is Smiles and he is available through Neels’ Complete K-9 (source)

I know my little Cavapoo has added so much joy into my life.  Cannot put a pricetag on that.

Dogs are certainly nothing like cats which I owned for 14 years.  One thing I love about Asa is every single day, when I come home, he is there to greet me with a wagging tale and kisses.

So, if you are seriously considering adopting check out this beautiful little guy…







Bad habits…eating without consequence

Americans are notoriously bad about their diets.

IF we weren’t, our health issues would not be news’ fodder.

We have, as a nation, high incidences of obesity, heart attacks, high cholesterol, strokes, and diabetes.


Poor choices leads to poor health.



We are literally killing ourselves with our overindulgence and for some, poor food choices.

We also allow corporate America to dictate what we put into our bodies.  How many of us have watched a show (even late at night) and the tantalizing hamburger commercial (insert your own food weakness here) pops up…instant craving.


Some of the worst foods are also the cheapest, thanks to farm subsidies that artificially depress the price of corn, which is processed into a wide array of products. Even Americans who can physically access grocery stores that carry fresh and healthy food often can’t afford it. And with Congressional Republicans trying to cut $4bn from the Supplemental Assistance Nutrition Program (SNAP, also known as “food stamps”) which benefits the poorest Americans, the ability to pay a little more to buy vegetables and brown rice instead of frozen pizza – not to mention the time to prepare a wholesome meal – is simply out of reach for too many of us.

…[e]ven outside of low-income households, eating nutritiously can be a challenge. The explosion of chain restaurants has put many smaller places out of business, hurting local cultures and erasing eating traditions. The US is a big place, and McDonald’s is hardly the heart and soul of our food culture; but the more that TGI Friday’s replaces local haunts or makes their businesses unsustainable, the more homogenous our plates look. Chain restaurants have the added benefit of ordering enormous quantities of meal ingredients wholesale, which means they’re able to produce bigger portions for less money. Several centuries of large-scale immigration to the United States shaped our cultural identity as a land of plenty, and that ethos remains woven into our politics, our values and our eating habits. We gravitate toward these large-plate, low-cost restaurants because they hit a sweet spot in our cultural values: bigger, more, for less.



I am just as guilty. Heart Disease and diabetes runs on both sides of my family.  Because of my poor choices, I am now paying for it with my health.

It’s a wake up call. 🙁

I often chose to ignore it in the past but can no longer afford to do so.  Time for a change.  Time to grow up and face the music.  Time to make wiser decisions since this is the only life I have and I don’t plan on checking out any time soon…

The Winter Blues

winter-sunI’ve never fared well during the cold winter months here in the Midwest.

My brother was smart moving south to sunny Florida.  I prefer beautiful blue skies and 75 degree temps all year long. (But then, knowing myself, I’d miss the changing of the seasons)…so I tolerate the winters.

This winter has been a little off to say the least with flooding and warmer than usual temperatures.

When the last colorful leaf has fallen from the tree the predictable sadness seeps into my pores.  I can’t explain it. I just know the shorter days and bone chilling weather makes me feel hopelessly claustrophobic.

I dug around a little (the researcher in me) and found some useful info for those of us who dread the latter half of the year (I highlighted the ones which affect me the most):

Winter Blues / Seasonal Affective Disorder

What do the winter blues and SAD feel like?

  • Significant, lasting, downturn of mood
  • Apathy; loss of feelings
  • Irritability
  • Less energy
  • Fatigue
  • Boredom
  • Overeating; weight gain
  • Cravings for carbohydrates
  • Sleeping too much; difficulty waking up or staying awake
  • Less interest in being around other people
  • Less interest in activities one used to like

How are the winter blues different from clinical depression?

  • The winter blues are a subclinical (or mild) version of SAD
  • SAD is a clinical depression that occurs during the winter months
  • It dissipates during the spring and summer months
  • To be diagnosed as having SAD, rather than a first occurrence of depression, one must have a pattern of recurring depression during the winter months

How common is it?

  • Between 10-20% of Americans may suffer from mild symptoms associated with the winter blues
  • Seasonal affective disorder (or SAD) may affect 5% of the population
  • About 1% of people in Florida get SAD; about 10% of people in New Hampshire get SAD

Why do we get the winter blues?

  • SAD has been linked to a biochemical imbalance brought on by the shortening of daylight hours and a lack of sunlight in winter
  • Your mood is partly influenced by sunlight, melatonin, serotonin, and vitamin D (cholecalciferol)
    • Melatonin (sleep hormone) decreases when it is light
    • Serotonin (hormone associated with wakefulness and elevated mood) increases when it is light
    • Vitamin D helps the body maintain ↑ levels of serotonin during the winter
    • Light stimulates the production of cholecalciferol, which the body eventually transforms into vitamin D

More info can be found here source

I used to have a tanning bed membership and plan on going back, if only to combat these feelings.  I have felt better when I’ve used their services.  (Now to convince the husband of this logic)……

Bridge over a pond in the winter, Johannapark, Leipzig, Germany